February 23, 2013

the day my life changed forever.

morning: 

woke up

go Einstein bagels with Sam and Bryce and Donna

went to Called to Surf

went to Blickinstaff's to buy John some Aero bars for his match

came home

afternoon:

took care of my mom and dad

looked for my dad's medication

cleaned up my parents room a bit

cleaned up the living room 

made an "I <3 John Pearce" t-shirt for Bryce to wear to the match

went to BYU and hung out with John before his match

went and stayed in John's Dad's office while i waited and did homework

got a phone call from Donna. 

the call: 

Donna called me and told me that my Mom's heart had stopped and she was being rushed to the ambulance. 

i immediately picked up my stuff and left and Donna came to get me, and then we rushed to hospital and waited. 

the wait:

more and more family members showed up as we waited in tiny room to know what has happened

we cried for hours.

we waited a few hours, and then we figured out that my mother had passed away. worst day of my life. 

i will miss my mother more than words can explain, she was the strongest person i have ever known and she was a strong fighter against MS, the loss of this great woman is something that i will never be able to fill, and i have a whole in my heart. 

i feel numb. 

 memories: france trip is probably the best one. 

Fashion Spring Summer 2013

i always like looking at what is going to be in style the next season just so i can be prepared when i ask for birthday gifts, christmas, etc. 

so today i went and i looked at vogue and other sites to determine what was going to be in style for spring and summer of 2013. 

this is what i found. 

 and to be honest, i'm not too excited about this. 

Styles:

Stripes 

Checkered prints 

Metallics 

Oriental prints

Hawaii 

Tuxedos 

Kimono

Safari 

Ruffles

Sixties 

Pleats (mainly nude colored) 

Dots - polka dots (black and white)

Gold sequins 

Fringes 

Colors: 

Main Colors: Cobalt, Khaki, Sage, Goldenrod, Purple, Rust, Creamsicle, 

Base colors: grey, khaki, nude, coppertone

Cool colors: jade, green calcite, olive, acid, lilac, sky, electric blue, crayon blue, ink 

Warm colors: red, cinnabar, peony, gerber daisy, rose quartz, peach, red orange, persimmon, canary, lemon drop

this upcoming season is going to consist of a lot of blacks and whites, and some pastels and some bright neons. which i think is weird because this winter and fall we have been focusing on bright colors -- even though it's usually more burnt and dark colors around this season -- i didn't really like that too much. i don't like how we are losing variety. believe me, it's definitely more convenient, i don't have to buy different clothes for the season. but it doesn't really make me happy. 

i do like the idea that i have been hearing about being more street style, and having more washed out brights. i think that stuff is pretty rad. and i definitely need to get myself a leather skirt, those are dang cute. i like the idea of having oriental style, and the sixties stuff for sure. 

pantone has their ideas for color as well, i guess we will have to see how it pans out. all i know is that i like the idea of more polka dots - but i want there to be more of a contrast to our fall winter colors we have had going on. 

i definitely knew that cropped pants were going to last

i like color blocking. 

i don't know how i feel about that... ^ never been one for the flairs

yes, yes. bring on the asian influence.

i think that this just hurts my head a little. but it is still interesting 

i feel like in utah, that will be too hot. 

i love mixing materials and patterns. 

lace is probably my favorite fabric

i love vintage looks, so much and this definitely is a good one. 

you can never have enough silk.

i think this is nice and alll, but no thank you

mod is very good, i think that it just pops. 

i think that the teen look is pretty freaking rad. even though these pictures don't look too good

i don't like the idea of the women tuxedos.

i think this is too old lady for me

i think these dresses are adorable. 

i got all these pictures from here

have a good day, ya'll. hopefully your weekend is brighter than mine. 

Little Kids

today i realized how much i love little kids, even the ones that are complete suck ups. 

every wednesday i go down and help my friend, becky (or miss shepherd as i should call her), with her 4th grade class. i always bring treats for the kids (cause i'm a suck up to them as well), and i do the reading with them in groups of 3 -- me included--. before i start reading with the kids miss shepherd does something that they call 4 a day. the kids must answer 4 questions that miss shepherd writes on the board and if they get them right they get to go on a break. these are the questions asked today: 

it is kind of hard to read, but the first question is "who is the coolest person in the world?"

miss shepherd did this because she wanted to find out who the suck ups are in the class, and so i wrote my name on the board so they could make sure they spelt my name right (cause i am the coolest person in the world, duh) 

and these were some of the responses: 

so i guess they truly are kiss ups? or i am just the coolest person ever. 

and then after their break i got to reading with the munchins

and they are all very good at reading! i am so proud of them all. 

after the day is over, i give them their candy and miss shepherd and i go and help out the 4-H club, the one for sports. 

i sat by this little cutie for a bit, the was very sad because he wasn't able to play kickball cause he was too scared of getting hurt. :( but i learned that he loves baseball, and the yankees... so we were instant besties. and his eyes are so beautiful i couldn't resist his friendship. 

then miss shepherd and i posed for the photos for 4-H's final day. 

and the picture is terrible quality because the little boy took it for us. hahaha

have a great day, all of you guys. 

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Stress.

sometimes i get overwhelmed. i get stressed out and have panic attacks, it's pretty ridiculous and i feel embarrassed after because i was stressed about something so small and stupid that it really wasn't worth the the tears or the panic. and during these times of panic i turn to my family, i go upstairs to my mom and i cry, and cry, and then hyperventilating. it's pretty lame. 

then my mom gives me some pretty solid advice and all the worry goes away. it's pretty amazing. 

sometimes when i am stressed about school, family, friends, or finances yes, i'm a 16 year old who worries about finances, i decide to take refugee to lds.org, that site is truly amazing. you look up a word, and there is practically always a talk that you can read to make you feel better. 

today for instance, i have many stresses that i am thinking about: 

my dad is getting a full knee replacement, 

my mom is dealing with her health issues from a staph infection,

 i need to read a 650 paged book for american heritage,

i need to take my classes for drivers ed

i need to sign up for classes for the summer semester,

and i need to make sure i finish all my homework so i can help out more around the house. 

so... i decided to take a step back, and think. and during my thinking time, i decided to go to lds.org, and see if there is something to make me feel better, and so i searched 'stress', and not to my surprise all these talks popped up, talks by the infamous: 

Thomas S. Monson

Gordon B. Hinckley

Dieter F. Uchtdorf

these particular talks all spoke about what i have been dealing with stress, i didn't throughly read through them all, but they did give me a message i needed to hear. 

"Stresses in our lives come regardless of our circumstances. We must deal with them the best we can. But we should not let them get in the way of what is most important—and what is most important almost always involves the people around us. Often we assume that they must know how much we love them. But we should never assume; we should let them know. Wrote William Shakespeare, “They do not love that do not show their love.” ³ We will never regret the kind words spoken or the affection shown. Rather, our regrets will come if such things are omitted from our relationships with those who mean the most to us."

Finding Joy In the Journey (General Conference October 2008) by Thomas S. Monson

if you are ever stressed, like i usually am, it is always a good idea to read a mormon talk -- even if you aren't mormon yourself-- it still tends to help you out.

this is a talk by Dieter F. Uchtdorf, that i think you might enjoy also.

i hope you all can deal with you stresses, and still remember what is most important in life. 

remember that if you keep packing up a lot of tomorrows, you'll realize that you'll have a lot of empty yesterdays. 

Friday and Saturday Tennis

when dating a BYU tennis player, you watch a lot of tennis. my weekends usually consist of me watching tennis from 5:30 in the afternoon to 10:30 at night... yes, 5 hours of tennis watching almost ever friday and saturday. 

it's fun, i admit. and BYU won the match 5-1

but nerve wrecking at the same time.

when i watch john play tennis, and he is either winning or losing... my heart is like... t i g h t? it is just ridiculous, i get nervous, and when he gets mad at himself while playing i get nervous even more. 

especially last night. the match was close for his doubles. his double partner, keaton, and him were losing and then winning, and it was super close at times too. and john was getting angry, and keaton was too, who usually doesn't get angry. i just sat there, worried that they'd lose and then i'd have to deal with the poopy mood that john was going to have for the rest of the night. but luckily, he didn't lose! they pull through and broke them in game, and then they headed to the win. 

what does it mean to break someone in tennis? 

yes, i was wondering about this when i first started watching john playing. 

but i think i know now? 

to break someone in tennis is to win a game when they are serving--because it's easier to win when you are serving-- so if you manage to win a game when the opponent is serving you have the upper hand in the rest of the set.

yes, i know a bit about tennis... at least i think i'm hoping that i'm write about what it is to break someone. not like i've almost been watching tennis for a year now... i have

tennis is tricky though, there are so many rules... maybe i'll be able to understand tennis by the time it's john's senior year at BYU, so maybe in 5 years? haha

But i'll be watching tennis for many more weekends this season..

wish me luck!

next weekend BYU plays against their rival UTAH!

wish them luck as well!! they will probably win anyways, cause utah isn't that good. 

i stole this from facebook, patrick's sister posted it..sorry about the bad picture quality. this is from the friday match against UNLV